What could have been

Hate. The word synonymous with love in my book. Not same, but very similar, levels of intensity and direction. Today, or yesterday as it were was valentine’s day. Yet another stupid day. I am generally indifferent to these days. I mean, with each day of the year, I discover that today is kiss day, rose day, mothers day, fathers day, wear your underwear over your pants day.. I mean there is no end. Why should any particular day mean anything much. Birthdays and anniversaries need to be remembered to keep some people happy, but at least they happen just once an year.

Valentine’s day is something which usually leaves me more cynical than other days, having lived in usually sad surroundings, which have made the whole exercise useless, apart from wishing other people around – why in heaven’s name? no idea, just coz of some random reason. Prolly just coz it exists. Whatever.

I have decided to dedicate this particular post to those who are the could have been’s.
What could they have been? Good friends for life, friends, lovers, any number of things.
These are people who I started talking, and it went on and blossomed into something which was akin to friendship, only it proved to be not. Somewhere, somehow the track went somewhere and that vanished into thin air. I hate these kind of relationships, and as far as these people are concerned, their lifetime is limited to my whims and fancies. I periodically chop my messenger and orkut lists. Rough estimate : 3 times I did this. About a 100 people ceased to exist for me. Another round is in the offing, this time the casualties will be more of the could have been’s. does it matter? Who cares anyway.
I mean, if people wont return emails and messengers, in this particular world, they might be dead. Why not make it official? Makes life more easy, gets rid of lies, and the could have been’s – in my opinion the most useless and time consuming people of anyone’s life. Remember anyone?

Lesson learnt : learn to forget. Learn to chop memories out from your brain. Learn to not hate people, or specifics. Learn  to give up on people. Learn to celebrate independence day, rather than Valentine’s day
~Somanxo